Do you ever struggle from professional depression? "my stuff isn't good enough, i'll never be as good as so n so" how do you get passed it? And do you turn it into a strength and motivator to work harder/smarter etc?
everyone has doubts. everyone falls into the darkness pit… everyone.
but those who refuse to let it paralyze them, those who refuse to let it define them, those who get out of their own way… succeed.
its kind of a test. a mental test. if you can push past this and any other obstacle in front of you, you can create. and then you will feel accomplishment, and then you will have contributed… not only to the culture but to your own mental health.
every time i wrestle an issue or project to the ground, every time, i feel like a more whole person. the feeling of accomplishment beats the feeling of doubt. because one is earned and the other is in your head.
BUT use the doubt… to not suck.
so, i’m basically saying… just decide to. remind yourself nothing is standing in your way but you. so stop.
and as i have reminded people many times. whatever your fear is: fear of failure , fear of success, fear of embarrassment, fear of misunderstanding… whatever it is… over the years it has all happened to me. i have fallen on my ass in public, i have been threatened by less evolved people, i have been raked over the coals just because it was my turn…
and i’m still here. still standing. every bad thing that can happen to a creative person has happened to me and i’m still on my feet and still making comics with my pals.
all that really mattered is i made my stories. and they are out there.
Why do I continually get my hopes up, only to have my heart broken?
Why do I keep pushing the knife in deeper.
I allow myself to fall too quickly, to be too open. I silently scream as despair comes nearer. And yet I sit and watch as my dreams crash all around me, as if they are glass shattering. Through all the heart wrenching and the pain I try to press on. To live with a broken heart. Such will be my legacy. He who gave, but did not get.